watermelon

 this only happened because i figured out that i needed a safe word.

not for the sexy stuff. 

(we should be checking on the asexuals, they are Not Having A Good Time)

but for conversation.

i spiral

and spiral and spiral and spiral

until i find the answer

i've been looking for. 

it may not be the answer i thought

it was going to be

but dammit it's an answer.

I READ SOMEWHERE

that the watermelon was actually a very profitable crop

for black farmers

and white people (the first ones with access to ""education"" to have the free time to draw cartoons) 

made black people eating watermelon a stereotype.

they say stereotypes didheaduicfbwsrfvwonoeferwf

y'all i grew up saying i hated watermelon just because i could.

i finally had a whole watermelon with clayton and he cut it up for me.

my beautiful white savior that i thought would care enough.

but he didn't care. 

he just saw the psychosis before me so he couldn't help.

everyone who has already seen it can't help

because no one helped them when they were in it. 

thank you for releasing me

but fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck you. 

nobody cares.