i don't want to be mean

 what's hilarious is how people misinterpret the phrases

of the emotionally neglected child.

when they say "i'm so sorry for ____" 

your friends will say "there's no need to be sorry"

why?

why?

why do we invalidate the words of others so casually, so instinctually?

because hurt people hurt people. 

HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE.

that's the key to the world. to the universe. 

everyone gets their feelings hurt one too many times

and then they get mean.

i'm mean now and i don't think the doctors will be able

to medicate this away.

i'm going to die.

but i don't know when. 

so i have to live

like it's the last. 

literally, 

i have to. 

nobody cares.