EDIT: CL missed connection for cc

i told you i was off from work
(was hoping for a little flirt)
i told you to dance in the rain
while i just circled down the drain
your texting slowed, then silence showed
our daily lives were not the same.

i wanted you to open more
come out, let me show you the world
you started to give me control
then you stayed fragile as a bird

you let me chase you carefully,
got my interest indefinitely.
i'm sorry that i blasted through
all the bases to pressure you
i'm a slave to my emotions
my follies: my daily lotion.

i took and gave but mostly took
i felt with you, you had me shook.
i tried to move, to find my heart
i found my dog, is that a start?

i'm still in heat, in heat for you
i don't need sex, i just need you
can we try this? try this again?
or will i travel 'til the end?

i broke my heart when i hurt you
i ran away but i miss you
i would come back, come back for you
no one has heard a peep from you

i miss that night, under the stars
you stroked my legs and giggled hard
i held you then, cupped your behind
i should have took you, made you mine

i didn't want to leave you then
Mother agreed, She brought the rain

we never slept, we loved to talk
i went for coffee & kind of stalked
i panicked when you called me next
excited, yes, but car was wrecked

you sounded weird when i picked up
almost as if i called your bluff
you didn't think that i would talk
i never should have let you walk

walk right out of my boring life
cause after that i fell to strife
tried to find a similar love
instead found out you were my glove

(that was weird please disregard
rhyming's easy, syllables hard)

i've babbled on too long in this
i've waded through but still i miss

your eyes, your light, your caring thoughts
playful tease but could not be bought
sitting there on the couch with you
smiling, laughing, not feeling blue

when i saw you i felt complete
that night of pong stuck on repeat
i couldn't win! how hard i tried!
i can't move on, my heart is fried

i mimic, now, your energy
treat all with kindness, yet i bleed
where are you now? your house is bleak
they say move on but i'm still weak

the warmth that flooded in my cheeks
i haven't dreamed for weeks and weeks
only nightmares of death, decay
...are you gone? are you not okay?

we were special, you felt it, right?
this interracial - black & white
yin & yang, our push & pull
the sun & moon, china & bull

you taught me gentle, showed me grace
i tried to show my older face
i've grown stronger, and wiser still
i've learned to give, i've learned to fill

i hope you see this, maybe respond
cause i never will forget our bond.