how could i be so blind

i must be an idiot
with a big sign over my head
that reads something like:
"hey, come fuck me then leave me for dead.
don't worry about my feelings
i have no emotions every which way
i will never call you on your bullshit
and you can treat me any type of way.
i'm just here to please you
i'm here to make you look good
i'm here to show you how to better yourself
i'm here for you to lay down the wood.
i do not exist as a person,
i am only a being that will provide
don't worry about being the worst
cause in the end i'll still get out alive
don't worry about what i think
don't worry about what i feel
only worry about your own experience
don't focus on how i show you i'm real"
cause that's really the only way
to provide reasons as to why i'm stuck
but yo, i'mma go about my merry day
while y'all waste your time with a hate fuck.