i wait instead of wallowing
i spit instead of swallowing
i stand instead of cowering
i spin instead of slandering
i worry instead of angering
i slur instead of banging
i wash instead of stinking
i swim instead of sinking
i smoke instead of eating
i eat instead of feeding
i rock instead of rolling
i bid instead of folding
i am here instead of there
and it is here that i no longer stare
waiting for a day to see you again
i'm not waiting for life to begin
i will give, i will grow, i will stand alone,
i will feel, i will deal, i will regrow