terrible temptation to tickle then tangle
but brimming before betraying boy's bangles
smoking summons sultry sensations
while weeping whispers wily waylation

tough werks

things need to be in order
everything must have a place
we can't skate by or constantly wonder
whether we can really control the space

we need structure,
we need time
we need loyalty,
we shouldn't be blind

blind to our needs
blind to our desires
blind to over-knees
blind to our own fire

we work together
& we work it well!
we collude and conspire
we salvage & we sell.

we dream, we dare
we giggle a lot
we scheme, we scare.
we do what we're taught

keep it moving, keep it alive
strive for beauty, strive for stride
keeping pace isn't the same as keeping up
this may be a race but we're all just mutts

blurb #5

swollen throats
broken notes
swallowed dreams
time machines

delayed risks
labored fists
stolen glasses
frisky gator
missing masses
ignored investigator
queso quesadilla
lucky pepper

the alphabet gayme

semi-unwilling to feel the pain
shell out a shilling to catch the train
quickly now, before the rain
faster, still, before the blame

but time moves slow, when you're all alone
fear blisters skin when you can't condone

sticky sweat sweetens swears
nipply nets never near
always, actually, aware - awoken
braised balls barely broken
cautious calls clamor claims
dangerous dogs damage dames
egocentric error elicit ease
feasible facets fixing fees
grazing goats give grace
hazing hoaxes hinder heartrates
illegal idioms immonize ideals
jesus jesuits jiggle jives
klepto karts, kismet knives
lazy losers laying lies
maze movers missing mice
naysayers never know nice
ostentatious opals open olives
partying persons pardon polishes
quickened quetzals quiz quandaries
rickity reckless rushing restless
synergy symposiums symbolize sanity
tipsy teachers tantalize tempests
usurpers using useless undulation
vexing vixens visualize verbatim
wandering westward without wallowing
yesterday, yes, you're yellowing.

waltzing alone

i'm calm, i'm collected
i'm soft, i'm reflective
i'm full, i'm empty
i'm bored, i'm weeping

i'm gentle, i'm aggressive
i'm posh, i'm progressive
i'm off, i'm obsessive
i'm pop, i'm progressing
i'm lean, i'm lifted
i'm mean, i'm promiscuous
i'm goofy, i'm tame
i'm aloofy, i'm game
i'm awake, i'm alert
i'm sneaky, i'm covert

i blame, i accuse
i stain, i abuse
i wait, i push
i state, i lust
i call, i care
i stall, i stare
i mush, i mingle,
i'm lost, i'm single.

hallu

we cope and we learn
we process and we yearn
we believe then we beget
we bereave what we regret

el fin

this may seem like i'm just repeating
i may sound like i'm really bleeding
but i need a way to get this out
i need to found a way to shout
i'm done with this!
i'm done with y'all!
i'm past this shit
i'm ready to fall
i need my room
i need my place
i need to zoom
to another time in space
free me out, let me breathe
let me go, just let me grieve
grieve for what couldn't be
grieve for the different me
the one who used to let you walk
the one who smiled instead of talked
the one who opened up if they asked
the one who buckled down to bare my ass
this time is for good, you all can keep it
i'll never say i told you so
this is the deep end
this is the The End
the one people want
what they don't know is
you have to work so
you can flaunt
this isn't easy, living on the land
away from everyone, with no legs to stand
you get the web and you get electricity
and, sure, you even get to live in eccentricity
but what you don't know, what you don't see
is there is no I, there is only we
and if you weren't a part of that
you're just a pawn,
you're merely a stat
that can be redrawn
they'll feed you whatever to keep their stance
but you're easily replaced with other hands
they are pack and you're an intern
you're a slave who was sent to burn
burn your light until you're snuffed
do the work but you're never stuffed

cause farm life means groceries
means you're gonna live on the cheap cheap
cause you have no right to feel happy
not when you're got a job and live for free
you thought that the life you wanted
you thought it's be cool to have no warrant
but you were wrong, but at least you tried
you tried to stay strong, instead you died
but you were brought here for a reason,
you had to sweat out, sweat out this season.
so you could see: it's not all goats and eggs
it's spiders, it's bees, it's hours of dreads
it's reading, it's giving, it's surrendering your life
it's speeding, it's thrifting, it's being a house wife
doing the things no one wants to do
cuddling your dog till you're needed to
to do some other task, some other job
something they won't cause they seem like slobs
i don't hate them, i love the place
i only know that i need my space
i need some time to see my face
i need some room to reclaim my race
i bubble up, my pot's too full
the water's ready: it's time to cull.

sucking up

swallowing
wallowing
allowing
doubt living
proud sing
crowd surfing
loud cursing

----

savory sausage
wicked tweets
flavored flossing
meager meets
let downs compared
to edgy scorps
never prepared
for falsified snopes
layered lemons
lazy snares
favored screams
wicked wares

---
summon the fear
while death feels near
never hold dear
your virgin rear
unless a tear
may summon a bear
then all if fair
within the lair