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what if i died today
and the last words i had to say
were nothing short of excellence
but also extremely irrelevant?

if i claimed i missed you now
and cried until you took a bow?

you kiss my eyes
and lay me down
fold my arms
give me a crown
made of lilies and violets
provide a suit
would it be black?
or would i look like loot?

you said it'll fall on you to bury me, right?
but what i burned up to save you the fight?

you'd cry, yes, but not for me
you'd cry for you, for what i couldn't be.

you wouldn't even know who to invite
there were so many, i brought such light

i'll end this here & i'll end it nice
i'll never tell you, but i've done it twice