Saturday, March 25, 2023

still outside (still outside)

 if you treat someone like an outsider, that's exactly what they become.

pointing fingers feels extremely counter-productive.

i'm not going to sit here and say "my parents raised me a certain way so that's why i am the way i am"

because that phrase

is literally

true

for

everyone.


if that phrase is literally true for everyone, 

why would anyone

ever

 get mad at their parents?


go make something cool instead.

no one wants to hear you complain.




Thursday, December 15, 2022

brand new lazy eye

 dripping white dreams all over the floor

scouring til clean and begging for more

pulling out baggage and revealing our hands

just a couple of aggots gettin the bag

boys will be boys but men are tough too

why settle for tape when you've got the glue?

polish the china and bring out place mats

pull out your tommy, i put on my spats

i'm messy and heavy and a lil bit too mean

please don't talk to me but i love to be seen

if we stay here and dance, we'll laugh and adore

if we play out there, they'll need an encore

check out the style, come bask in our drip

yall can't handle liquor but want a pink sip 

if you try to lick her, you'll get a fat lip

high on that delta 8, don't need a bong rip

psychonaut in the space, going up on a trip


Wednesday, November 9, 2022

a whole new world

 there's a book i read that changed my life.

(well, there's quite a few books i read that changed my life.)

but the one that comes to mind now is called The Scavenger but I can't remember the author's name.


it's a deep, dark book that i read entirely too early. it was the first book to make me hold onto my seat.

it's the first book that scared me.


i didn't know i was scared until i wrote a book report about it.

i wrote a very in depth book report about it.

pictures and everything.


they must have been so scared but there was nothing to be done.

i read the book because there was no one there to tell me not to.


i loved that book but i also threw it across the room when it was done.

i've only thrown three books.


or maybe there are more i've thrown


who knows? 

















after nine there comes a time

when we dance until we dine

scarcely mumbling words of praise

until our night turns into days


weeks will pass in just a second

when our eyes collapse,

more than reckless


i cannot be tamed

(but neither can you)

and so we sleep

until the morning dew


callously crossing

railroads all day

a slick embossing

of 'damn that's gay'


i don't mind the

game

(because i'm playing too)

i half expected 

a different crew


okay playboy

let's try a round

i don't mind

that we're 

underground


<3




GOOD MORNING MY LOVE

(i'm sorry for screaming)

your heart is a glove

that my hand will sink in


i'm rough and tumble

(and a lil bit stinky)

i almost crumbled

but you found me blinking


staring at the sun, hoping for answers

you come alive with the moon, 

(we're both dancers)


i'm so happy you're here

i'm glad to be your's

now come watch me

twerk on all fours



Tuesday, October 11, 2022

wake me up

october is wild 
and it's only the beginning
i can't quite remember
who's losing or winning
i'm stuck in one stop
constantly spinning
a loading error
gone wrong
but, with someone,
i'm twinning

catapult me into the world
i'm tired of sitting
string me up, like a girl
(if you think that's fitting)
i know what i want
so why must i beg?

i'm not a  savant
but i drink up the sledge

sorry for opening the door 
while we're moving
i just wanted to leave
it's not like we're losing

i'm only scared
when people tell me 
to be
i'm not afraid
despite what it
seems

please give me space
while i process
and panick
but check on me some
cause i'm way more
than manic


Wednesday, October 5, 2022

"that boy needs therapy" - the avalanches

 what is a psychiatrist?

a psychiatrist is a person who studies for a long time to be able to diagnose people and prescribe medicine.

if you can study really hard to eventually be a psychiatrist,

who is the psychiatrist down the street? in milwalkee? in nevada?

all psychiatrists are people who studied.

doesn't it stand to reason that you could also study a lot?

if a psychiatrist only meets with you for an hour

before prescribing you medication

riddle me that, batman


if people are paid to sell 

new medication

to a hospital,

who do you think

they're making the pitch to?

how do you know

if 

your

 medication

is 

working?

Tuesday, October 4, 2022

"mental illness isn't gendered"

Teenage Euthanasia

Tuca & Bertie

Now Apocalypse

Oh Jerome No

Game Of Thrones

My Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

Dogs in Space

One Punch Man


top 10 "be your own boss" shows

 Here are the television shows I watched that helped me gain sentience:

Silicon Valley

Rap Shit

Apple & Onion

Chewing Gum

Laser Wulf

Superstore

It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia

Steven Universe

Bonding

Party Down