skulldugery

well i've wrecked up some debt
i'm a little unkempt
i would like to be kept
like, collar on neck
so i don't feel so bereft
cause i'm looking forward to death
cause i've done enough meth
i'm not looking my best
i wish i needed to rest
there's too much swell in my breast
yet they respond to your breath
there's a pen on my crest
but i don't feel very blessed
i hate being what you've got left
but i guess i made my own mess
i stay in constant distress
cause i won't look for a mistress
cause even though i'm dickless
i need some dick for christmas
is there a list? bitch, yes
hard pass on jason sedakis
but i'd fuck with jadakiss
oh fuck, jada pickett smith
damn, honestly, all the smiths
what y'all know about the sith?
cause i don't know a lick of it
i'm glad y'all find that relevant
....cause i'm too busy out here chasin dick
i just i wish i wasn't so accidentally celibate
out here actin like i'm some kind of delicate
as if i need a delegate, someone a lil more elegant
or maybe a little more relegant.
or maybe a little less melanin
represented by someone with lighter skin
actin like i have to sink or swim
or to succeed, i have to drown my kin
claw my way to the top in this world we're living in
but always make sure to have that one white friend
so i can more easily pass through clubs we're in
because somehow it's so much easier blending in
when i ... surround myself with less melanin
decide i'm much less elegant...
until they realize i'm more militant
i don't believe that i am heaven sent
but allow me to be a kind of delegate:
try tossing out a little merit, eh?
it ain't all about purity
but it ain't all purely buggery
it's all gotten a bit muddled, see?

juzz

bursting forth with a raw kind of spunk
but feeling defiled by a spasmatic twunk
without darkness, there can be no light
but baby, i'm running out of will to fight
i've seen how you fight, before i would bow
but the tables will turn, i'm that Dowager Cow
i can be passed off, talked over, or sometimes bought
but i surely refuse to be your second thought
give me a sign, reach out, i'm here!
(but i look for your return with certain fear)
i know we're not over, i'll see you again
but i was far too in love to be just a friend

and i o o p

come vandalize what i thought was meant to be
come clambor in my endless ecstasy
if i ramble, keep close and cuddle these
trundle on through bushes, try not to freeze.
fickle, fondling for a taste of breeze,
try not to eat my dust but you could with ease
if i abuse you,  tasting the release
we might soon find a need to compete.

butting heads, arguing for not
lost in our language, tangled up in thought.
i'm bumbling, broken, begging for blood
i'm stumbling, staggering, trying to be understood
if i flop on my face, can you still gather the goods?
i care far too much cause you showed me i should -
i don't know what comes next but maybe you do
i don't deserve your reckless nonetheless mending glue

i'm too broken and empty to give you my best
i'm rather unkind, i don't know when to rest
i wish we could unwind in this infinite jest
but i'll remain unsigned if i suck at your breast
i think i'm too blind to handle your test
you need a whole lemon, not my silly pink zest
i need to hide these wrists but i'm stuck with a vest
if you brought what you need, i could build a neat nest
my heart is too full, your soul i will bless
i hope i'll console you even though i'm the mess
i'll keep to myself, i'm too affectionate to digress
i know who i am, i'm not going back to the dress

and i'm glowing in effervescent adoration of you
i'm greatly amused by the many but fully compulsed by the few
and the memory of your hair, like fairies' morning dew
sends me into a fiendish frenzy of mellowly mourning you,
instead of the anger and eternal scorning of you,
i think i'll withdraw from this emotional queue
cause i'm a helluva suitor, but i need my space
and i'm so fucking tired of running this race
and i'm so fucking tired of trying to keep pace
then again, it's all worth it when i see your dumb face

i might be too new to keep up the game,
i'm too terribly enthused at breaking your brain
my policy is firm, i've never been the same
it must be the formula for aching for fame
but i never quite know which boundaries to keep
no matter how you smile, for you i will weep
i love diving under but your cavern's too deep
i know how to climb but your mountain's too steep

and if i ask what you think of me, just lie to my face
i'll pay the fee, i know how to hurt, i am unashamed
i don't mind if you yell, i will not complain
but feed me your fury, and i'll feed you my rain
collapse in my glory, so i can scream out in pain
if i don't say something, the tears might just stain
and if you remember, there's no need to regret
i'm a damn libra rising, my needs are offset
i take back what i said, my needs are not met
i'll do myself, so i won't have to cum less
here in this song is where i confess
you smell like home, yet remind me i need to be free
but when i'm around you, what shouldn't i be?
i'll provide and support however you see fit
but if you bark at me, then you're gonna get bit

i'm culpable, capable of handling your woes
just remember to invite me to wave at your shows
you can ride my highs while i lift up your lows
but please do dip in just a little more than your toes